SCORE!

When I got into work today, I had an email from one of the women in my French class (Hi K!) telling me that there was a wicked sale on running shoes at one of the specialty shops here in Dart, but that at 50-75% off, things were going fast.

I had a dr appt a bit later in the day, so stopped by after to check out the sale. After getting my feet properly measured (my left foot is almost a size smaller than my right. Who knew?) & trying on a good 6-8 pair of shoes, I ended up with a pair of New Balance WR759 - for a whopping $40.25 inc. tax!!! wahoo, mama loves a sale! They were low on my size sale shoes, or I may have bought a second pair. I mean really, they were 85% off the $140reg price - can't beat that!! No more wearing R's hand-me-down runners. These are so much lighter & less clunky than I'm used to - can't wait to take em for a spin! If only my lung/chest illness would bugger off so I could breathe properly, I'd be all set.

Frustrated

I was really frustrated with myself at the gym today. In 35 min, I only managed to run 5-6 min (1min intervals) between 4.4 & 5 mph, because i felt like puking whenever I ran. I didn't, but the fact I've been trying to build up to running more than 1 min straight for so long and still can't, frustrates the hell outta me. And the thought of only 1 min (or less) between running intervals? makes me wanna puke more, because i'm barely catching my breath by the time one min is up, let alone ready & able to run again.

I ended up breaking down a bit (yay for noisy showers) because I WANT to be able to run 5k in June, at least a goodly portion of it, but I feel like it will NEVER happen, let alone in 3.5 months. I know I should probably be running slower, but it feels so unnatural, and almost easier to run at the higher speeds, but then I can only do shorter amounts of running. Gah.

I'm hoping that when I get a good pair of shoes (next paycheque or so) I might try running outside, and maybe being un/less tied to the clock on the treadmill will help. I'm totally a numbers person though, so this might completely backfire. We'll see. I know the weight wasn't put on in a day and nor will it be taken off in a day, but it's not so much about htat but the fact that I'd let myself get so far gone that I can't even do c25k like a normal person. Boo.

wise words...

I see a lot of inspirational quotes on FB (who doesn't??) but I saw this one and it really summed everything up.

I'm not trying to lose weight to be skinny, but to be healthy, so I can be around for LJ for the long run (hah, punny). I'm surrounding myself both on- and off-line with people who inspire & motivate me, and slowly... SLOWLY... i'm changing my mindset on things like food & exercise, I'm just *changing* ..

I'm now down 10ish lbs since I started tracking, and while I still feel like bingeing/ mindlessly eating whatever's around sometimes, I try not to. Having to journal on mfp helps, as does a touch of the flu ;) If I were to keep up this pace of weight loss - 10 lbs in 6 wks, I could be down close to 80 lbs total by Christmas. squeeee! I'd still have another 50+ to go, but what a fab cmas gift that would be... All right, enough day dreaming.